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It is always an understatement to say that time flies. We are already entering the end of May and looking back, I’ve looked at the things I have accomplished and the relationships that I have built over the past 5 months and woah, it has been a bumpy but an incredible ride.

The first 5 months of 2009 has not always been kind to me. Every working day that I wake up to, has unbeseemingly become something which was not what I had envisioned when I first decided to join the rat race of life. It is the curse of young man with visions of things unseen, unsaid and undone. Stuck in a mundane and dull job, crunching numbers and analysing data based on the foolishness of mammon, yet you still fight on and persevere as you know the that what does not kill you makes you grow stronger. For you know the knowledge and experience gained now will always be beneficial to you in the future and will help you accomplish your dreams.

I’ve also had the painful and humbling experience of going through 3 days of having panic attacks or fits. One cannot stand up and claim he has “lost it” unless he has experienced a bout of mental stress disorder which is actually pretty common among young professionals working in Malaysia but well hidden as it is just a social stigma in Malaysia. My quick bout of panic attacks served as a poignant reminder that our brains are only made up of chemicals. Chemicals that can be altered very easily by cirumstances and substances.  Who are we to be over proud of our intelligence or achievements? We spend countless years studying and striving to acheive as much knowledge and wisdom as possible it could be all taken away in a second.

Just like any other journey in life, 2009 has not been all pain and gloom. I’ve had incredible moments with the people around me. I saw one of my best friend’s get married to the love of his life earlier in April. Together, with a couple of my mates have started a band and started writing songs and jamming to our hearts content. I’ve also become tremendously closer to the big Guy above and to my parents. I’ve even learned how to be a bit more patient and enjoy the wonder of fishing in the midst of calmness and serenity of the sea!

But the thing that I’ve learnt and enjoyed the most is that sometimes the best things in life is to grab a blanket,  go to a lake and lie down and stare into the stars while wondering and sharing your dreams with a friend. Donughts are always optional.

why would I chase your shadow all my life
and be afraid of my own?
I’d rather be with you
I’d rather not know
where I’ll be than
be alone and convinced that I know

when the world keeps spinning round
my world’s upside down
you and I wouldn’t change a thing

- Lifehouse -

Lyrically meaningful. No matter what goes on in life or in the world YOU will and have always remained…..

Had trouble breathing today again due to the haze but hey reading the news today things could be worst. I could:-

have been a 17 year old girl and have my boyfriend force me to pop some candies and take nude pics and a sex video with me. After being tormented by him for a couple of months I finally get the courage to break up with him and you know what he does? He murders me. Oh yea did I tell you that my family has been supporting him all this while because they took pity on him? Yea that could be me.

have been switched at birth and only realise that the life I had was not actually supposed to be mine. (Errr I am still wondering if I was really switched at birth. I am sure there is an Orang Utan with a chinese baby somewhere. )

have been out for a drink or something like that and then I come home to realise that my “home” has been stolen. Police tell me hey I think the robbers used a crane!

SO what I guess I have to say is that everyone goes through their own crap in life. And USUALLy there is always someone who is going through worse shit than you are. But I have been learning to be positive and to praise and trust God in all circumstances whether good or bad.